it was a BFN and i felt horrible

Well, i did go for the blood test and expected, it was a negative, yup i took a really long time to update this blog, cause well, i did not really want to talk about it and harp on the failure. It turns out that apparently, my eggs were not good too. After the BFN on wednesday, i saw Dr Loh of KKH on saturday. I did not know why, but i felt so lost and so depressed sitting at The private suite, like I dread going there. When i went in, i spoke to Dr loh, seems to me he has been really busy with all the new ivf patients. He seems to be in a hurry, but I don't blame him. But what he said next came as a shock," he told me, i think your eggs are not as good as well, and there are too few, I had 6 eggs. For someone my age, this is considered really little". I was silent for abit, did not know how to react, but in the end, just asked him if he would give me a higher dosage of puregon for the next cycle. He agreeded.

He told me as well, that hubby did not need more jabs, but i feel otherwise and told him i felt fresh will be better. He gave me the prescription for the medication and told me not to wait too long for the next IVF, he said start in march /april. I was not mentally prepared for that, intending to rest till june at least. Stilling in the pharmacy waiting to collect the medication, i felt so tired, tired that we have to do more injections, chinese medication and supplements. I never felt so tired. When i got home, i just broke down, I was so disappointed with myself with the results. I felt horrible.